Sunday, April 15, 2007

bored bored bored.
my whole afternoon BURNT.!
thanks to mr muru comprehension hwk ..
sighs ..

anyway thanks joey for helping me out .
haha. my summary only 144 words.. =/

sighs. im sad.
im depressed..
my hair is black .
black . after i showered...
comb my hair look at my mirror ,
omg my hair is black .. ):
damn you sister, saw me and still say ...
" omg jiejie.. wad happen to your hair? ;
why so black? even blacker than mine"

anyway , im back from oh-so-superb dinner!
i had my favourite satay again !! wee~! :D:D:D
life is oh-so-great again . hahaha !
oh well. food can occurs most things naturally for me =x

PEOPLE !!! GUESS WHAT !!!
tml is me and honey 2nd month together ! :D
i love my piggy many many !
our 2nd month will be spend in detention room tgt.
its okay though , cause i can get to be close to him still.

astiana. cheer up !
i dont want to see you frown :(
hurts to see my friend like that.

yay. tml a brand new week.
a fresh new week. :D
i hope next week will be so much better than last =/
* prays hard *

yyeeepeee! dear fetching me to school again i guess.
my dear is just oh-so-nice . :D
dont be jealous now peeps. :D
thinking about it . ..
im starting to miss honey again .. ):

"happy 2nd month to honey in advance"

You were my strength when i was weak

You were my voice when i couldn't speak

You were my eyes when i couldn't see

You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when i couldn't reach

You gave me faith 'coz you believed

I'm everything i am

Because you loved me

{ Syafiq and Denise, 2 month and still counting. ! <33 }

8:50 PM

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Saturday, April 14, 2007

sunday at ben and jerrys

negative film of asyraf

me and eunice

how sweet can we be?

i know you love us ~

IM TALLER !

friends are forever, sometimes.

i know you love me !
i love myself too .

say you love me .
cause those words can save me from darkness.

i still look great in blur looks too eh ?
i know i look great . praise me alrights?

so many things happen this week.
so little time to type finish .
ahh im so lazy to type anyway.
ahh anyway i change my blog song.
hope you all peeps out there love it too !

anyway now dear in JB .
So im trying to stay awake and wait for him.
im sucha oh-so-good girlfriend .

anyway things hadnt been my way ..
i wanna thanks a certain people who been there.
thanks to : FAIZ , CANDICE, ASTIANA, DEAR, JOEY !

FAIZ ! thanks for accompany me today !
thanks for being my listening ear today !
thanks for playing game with me !
you're quite noob in tic-tac-toe ! =x
dont believe wad i promised you .. =/
anyway asking me to cheer up?!
MONKEY, you must cheer up too !

CANDICE! i know some things going ur way now!
but you gotta cheer up yea?
ill always be there for you !
and i know ur guy will be there too =/
oh well. gotta rival ! zzz

ASTIANA! thanks for being my listening ear.
i love you many ! !
cant describe how much i love you la.

JOEY! ahaha!
thanks for anything dude .
thanks for msging me these days .
thanks for being my listening ear ..
thanks for everything.
and u must cheer up too alrights?!
dont so sad. i dun want see my sister like tat.

DEAR!
sorry if i was being rude to you just now.
was in foul mood.
thinking about lots stuffs.
and just now you msg me ..
thanks for loving me more each day !
I LOVE YOU MANY MANY TOO !
MONDAY GOT 2ND MONTH !
dont ever FORGET =X

sighs. today shall be my last day ...
last day when my hair is brown .
byebye brown hair tml . ):
welcome myself to the black parade. ):

ahh i forget about the show on tv at 10pm.
Aww. so sad lahs.
oh well .anyway .
miss singapore universe finalist is so omg.

why everytime i take a step closer,
you take a step back ?

you're what i want every minute;
you're what i yearns every second.

{ Syafiq and Denise, 2 month and still counting. ! <33 }

10:30 PM

Friday, April 13, 2007

im currently blogging directly from school.
this is the first time in my sec 3 life going cca PURELY.
special-ness ! lol! haha. cause today com can bascially just play com.
cant use computer at home . so pathetic eh?
and im supposed to stay here until 6pm++ to wait for honey?!
gooodness ! i dont believe im waiting for him AGAIN !
but everything i did for him . SO WORTH IT ~!
i guess =/

somethings happen on monday,
i just cant to take them off my mind.
daddy words ; mommy words; brother words;
fucking teacher words; friends words..
everyone take knew abt it just kept talking about it.
it hurts me so much.
sometimes i dont even know myself .
i just basically lose myself sometimes.
i wanna slash myself till i bleed.
i wanna shout to the world to feel alive.
i took me 3 days 3 nights of crying to feeel alright.
retarded me .
OH WELL .!
NO ONE FUCKING CARES . ....

resident who called the school, fuck you !
think you so big eh ? call the school complaint.
see me taken away by 2 teachers.. happy arh?
fuck you bastard. i rmbed your fucking face.
if i ever see you again, ill make sure you'll be like a fucking pimp.
asshole fucker. i gin you at HDB not happy la? then call . fuck you.
that's my life wad. you go cut in for wad fucking sake.
i see you dress like some poor guy living on the streets.
wad the fuck? i think you watch ugly betty too much la.
then might think ugly is the new beauty ..
wad the fuck you want ?!?!?!!?!
you jealous cause you no girlfriend or wife isit?
fuck you again. oh for fucking sake, who wants you.
fuck you MANY ! i just fucking hate you !
you spoilt my fucking life.
fuck you bastard. !
thanks to you im getting busted for LIFE !

candice!!!
HAPPY 2ND MONTH TO YOU ! :D:D
i love you horny slut .
i been loving you so much .
you didnt realise maybe .
ahaha. lols ! girl , sorry i didnt give you anything !
ill owe you ..muah lotsa to you !
all the best to you and fifi . ~
oh great, i know i got another rival . ):

its just 3 more days to me and honey 2nd month !
woooooohooo !
and fuck you school or so wadever , i wont leave him ..
BOO ! lousy fucker. too bad ..
so wad if we're under some movement book or probation?
NOTHING WILL SPILT US APART .
you fucking asshole ! read this !!!!
WE'LL NEVER BE APART .
i hate you bastard ... !

i hate this world.
i hate this planet.
so cancelling off to my perfect world. .
i hate life .
i hate things are .
i basically hate everything now .
im tired of moving on .
im tired of everything.

dear, sorry i have been throwing temper at you.
sorry i been giving you attitude.
Sorry for everything that made you unhappy.
im unstable for this week .
sometimes for me .. the wound ..
its too deep to tired to move on .
sorry for everything, boy ):

joey... aww.. i this week boring le la.
sad lo. wah lao.
i want the cs and dota disc. SOBBness can.
then today international friendship day,,
JOEY OUR RINGS HAVENT BUY YET ):
why today got oritention camp . sucks la .
sobbbbbbbbb la !

astiana, thanks for everything.
thanks for being there for me.
thanks ALOT !
love you many many ,

today its oh so fun .
i got a nice hug and kiss from my dear in the morning.
Woooooooooooo! :D:D:D
tat's just brightens my day ..
its been days we never did that.
sighs ! i miss you many many !
later im waiting for you .
i hope i can get many many again .
ill miss you during the weekends ):

life can be so pathetic

byebye prefect world.
byebye precious dreams.
byebye to everything .

{ Syafiq and Denise, 2 month and still counting. ! <33 }

4:29 PM

Sunday, April 8, 2007

today sort of AFH - away from home. :D
woke up bloody early cause of some phone calls.
then couldnt slp. ahya ... last night couldnt slp la .
so went to seletar country club with mom and sis .
then i went do hwk . sis went swimming. mom went gym.

oh fuck can .
i finish the english hwk .
then paper flew on the WET floor.
paper fking wet. then byebye to the hwk .
then i never bring enough fullscap paper.
sway lo.
then history homework i give up . LOL!

then after tat sis went birthday party.
then mom and i went shopping !!! :D:D:D:D
my favourite hobby ...!
went heeren bought a skinny jean $39.90.
cheapy.. hmm next week im waiting for new stock .
waiting for the next stock for black skinny jeans. :D:D
i left my contact number there ... HOHO ! xD

damn sad can ..
i want that skinny jeans from fresh imp ):
it cost only $39.40 can ):
blame on my big butt .. damn !
and blame fresh imp for no waist line sizes.
only got S,M,L . grr.
obviously large is like super big already la .
then small is too small. ..
then medium .. fuck la.. stupid butt :(
cant buckle .. oh well .... NVM !
ill find nicer one !!! fuck you . !

then after that went wisma ..
ohmyfuckinggosh !
i spend abt 100$$++ on shoes at charles and keith.
well its was like 3 pairs i bought . pretty cheap though.
Was on discount on UOB cardholders.
that makes me wanna buy more =x
discounts are so tempting !
so discount till abt $80++ .
ahh . im so going crazy after shopping !

then nvm lo. then met sis at united square.
Where her friend's birthday party was held...
then daddy came pick us up !
im like so fucking happy today can ...
cause mom found where's my favourite satay stall moved.
im like so happy can .

then daddy bought us to eat there .
ahh . i been looking for that store for fucking 3 years. ):
and none other satay store can beat that !!!! :D:D:D
ask dad to order 20 sticks (chicken) !
i ate 10 .. wahahha !!!! dad ate 2 ; mom 3; sis 5.
omg . i miss that satay !!!
oh okay . im a great satay fan . =/
or rather a great food fan ! D:
im so going to crave for it so much more often .
im oh-so-absolutely happy today !

so now im back home .
i showed daddy what i bought .
daddy said nice .
he likes one of my pair of shoes i bought especially.
he said elegant !
whahah now i got high heels i got reasons to buy more clothes.
DENISE IS SMART !!!

anyway . dear didnt go for his class this morning.
he overslept. ..
my dear is pig . forever a pig .
o well ~...

anyway dear was great.
he kept me company whole day again !:D
YIIIIIPEEEEEEE.! tml i can see my pig already !
tomorrow dear picking me up to school again !
im blessed and fortunate to have a nice family and .
obviously a oh-so-fabulous boyfriend xD
dont jealous now, people !

and oh yea .
candice !!!
thanks for telling me where to buy the skinny jeans.
wahhaa... im happy.
im feeling oh-so-wonderfully happy ! gees
i feel over the moon !
sad sad sad ! tml must return dear his ring ! ):
i've been wearing it everywhere :(
oh welll............

gees. omg .
i forgotten totally about homework .
byebye people !
im going to finish homework.
and back to my oh-so-sweet dreams ! :D

shoppping reeallly makes me oh so happy.!

money money and more money please!
oh pretty please? i give you my hands;
pass me a 50 bucks or 100 bucks?:D

{ Syafiq and Denise, 2 month and still counting. ! <33 }

7:40 PM

Saturday, April 7, 2007

i wake up this morning.
hoping to get an sms from piggy.
but didnt msged me .
i guess you're still slping..
waiting till 11am, couldnt take it ..
then a sms came in apologising saying you were sleeping.
ahh . my darling is a pigg..!!!
but we had so much fun through smsing .
we crapped alot ..
and you take super to reply my msg can...
guess you were really busy in the morning :(

lucky faiz was there the whole morning to company me.!
thanks monkey ! :D:D:D
looking at the ring you lend me for the weekend.
made me so depressed and missing you more ..
i wear it everywhere. :D
i kept playing with it .. :D
i even slpt with it -.-
but wad i really wanted was you beside me ... ):
how depressing .

looking at the ring while typing just depressing.

ahh . im missing you like crazy can...

afternoon watched dvd with daddy.
watch some dvd called "miami vice"
so many like sex scene.. lame .... =.=

then whole day dear had be smsing me.
hehe :D im so touched .
im sorry if i replied all ur smses so late today. =x
was busy .. kinda busy ...

anyway .. chat with joey sister.
"he" so nice can ..
he kept me company all my boredness times...
"he" even help me find history notes.
"he" too nice can ...
"he" even gonna lend me counter-strike and dota disc.
"he" so nice right?
and "he" might buy me friendship ring on friendship day .
oh wadever.. anyway "he" gonna pass them to my sis on tues.
yupps. im waiting for the stuffs on tues.
When i dl-ed them, ill play with you yea?
and blessed you and my sis tgt long long .
ps: my sister aint lesbian .

dear sounds unhappy with me now.
Sighs , wad to do ?!
cause i always reply his msg long .
then suddnely one of his msg was like :
" yalah2.. ure 4eva a bzy gurl..."
lols. i guess i cant take advantage too much . =/
always say he understand but he got his limits too ..
dear i understand too .! so sorry !!! :D

sometimes keeping your feelings from ppl;
hiding your emotions from others;
does no good to anyone .

My love is not up for negotiation;

Hello doesn't mean an open invitation

{ Syafiq and Denise, 2 month and still counting. ! <33 }

10:06 PM

Friday, April 6, 2007

today was so much fun !
went swimming with..
candice, rabanni, fahmi, arep, syauqi and honey. :D
candice lend my her biniki !
thanks babe xD
i know my butt are big, dont jealous xD
girl, tml we're so gonna get sunburn .!
my face are turnning red .. argh !

and my face was hit by some soccer ball again ..
so pathetic ..
lols.! but we gotta so so much fun .
although i was angry with dear... =/
but like i said, he can never ever make me angry for long!
so unfair .. =/

then after going by condo there swimming,
we headed off to compass point to eat .
fahmi and syauqi ate some packed food they bought.
candice and me went to take away KFC.
then all of us headed to LRT outside there and eat.
rabbani and dear was like eat here abit, eat there abit.
then after eating finish i rmbed i got dinner at home,
then i forgotten . then went to eat blueberry waffle,
then treated rab cheese waffle.
did i mention that dear and i love to eat blueberry waffle! :D:D

then dear was like so sweet..
he even send me home even though he got no money .
nevertheless, his nice and oh-so-good girlfriend gave him money,
since other friends dont have the exact amount .
i didnt mind anyway . :D
dear was just so nice .
then we slack HDB there for like about 30-45 mins .
and i totally can oh-so-much fun with dear !
and we took so many pictures .
but we either rejected by me or him , lol!
but there's one picture i didnt wanna delete!

honey was like so sweet can .
"i kiss you then u take picture" :D:D:D:D

although it only been a month plus we're tgt.
we did almost wad every couple did ,
yea of course not sex -.- duh-uh..
from the most childish to the most funniest craziest stuffs. :)

from played sissors, paper, stone;
kissing in buses;
kissing under the rain;
kissed me when i feel sad;
comforting me when i feel sad, lonely, unwanted;
teasing each other;
calling each other names;
bullying me :( ;
oweing one or another each week of bullying,
if each of us scold one another;
slapping each other;
hugging me each time i feel alone or just trying to make me alright;
by saying "i love you" everytime you kissed me;
carrying my bag even though u felt gay at times;
tickling each other till we burst out laughing non-stop;
holding my hands tight, never wanting to let go;
hugging me and letting me lie on ur chest hearing ur heartbeat;
letting me sleep on ur chest and shoulders;
trying to hug me to sleep and make me feel alright;
staying up by the phone to wee hours
just to make sure im sleeping, then you sleep;
feeling anxious and worried why i suddenly didnt reply your msges;
going behind my ears and just to say "boo!" :D
and many many more...

i love you and ill always do.
even though there are times i never knew,
how much u tried to show me how much you love me..
and im sorry for the time for being irrtating to you xD
even though you didnt mind me bullying you everyday.
and even if i dont know how to express my love for you,
just wanna say im glad i have you :)

im getting sun-burn :(

i never knew i have so much love,
until the day i met you .

{ Syafiq and Denise, 2 month and still counting. ! <33 }

9:56 PM

Thursday, April 5, 2007

many pictures of this school days week :

retardacy of the week ~

weridos.grace and denise :D:D:D love bitch !jerald :D:Dhis drawings =.=his drawings again..bitch and bitch .mr. cute guy.some K2 kid.haha. innocent retard face.jerald's drawing again.asyraf:Dsyafabestie :Dhott us !asyraf :Dfahmi !:D:D:Dasyraf and rab at the back.fahmi :Dright cockwise : candice, me, dear, fahmi and asyraf:Dthe lamers :Dsyafa; denise ; asyraf :Dfahmi , asyraf, syafa.fahmi !

the 4 days is the best :D
my dear had been fetching me,
to school and home everyday...! :D
my dear is nice :D:D:D:D

and we gotta lotas of fun ,
everytime we go home !
normally average 10 mins to go home,
now takes 2-3 hrs to go home =.=...

anyway . :D i dont mind..
i love my honey !:D

"no matter how far we are,
we're still close at heart"

no matter how life tough gets,
there's someone like you ill never forget.

{ Syafiq and Denise, 2 month and still counting. ! <33 }

9:27 PM

Sunday, April 1, 2007

HAPPY APRIL FOOL!

woopie ! tml back to school!
dear will be coming to fetch me to school again !
i can't wait for tomorrow morning !
i miss him so muchie ...

i asked dear to give me ..
lots of kisses and huggies tml ..
yupps. can we say both of us asked..
so fair play ..
i dont mind !!!
i miss my honey too much !

sighs. tml is monday .
the day of sadness will arrive..
tml is going to be worst than monday blues.
something terrible will happen ..
gosh , im really sorry ..

candice and denise conversation!
our sweeeet funnny talks last night ..

last night dear called me ..
then we chat AWHILE.
so embarrassing =x
i fell asleep while talking to him ..
gosh man !
but stupid boy..
purposely keep quiet so i will sleep..

ahh . my dear is the best :D:D:D:D
im proud to have him ...

ttttttraaaaaallala~
today feeling damn mood swing.
im caught in the middle ...
dunno whether im happy or not.
anyway .. sighs . all the best to tml..

candice, no matter wad ill love you always.
and we promised one another to be friends forever.

so if you're feeling down in time to come ,
ill always be here..

astiana, and i know love me .
about tml . wish us all the best =/

when there's love in the way .
there's love into the way .

where did i go wrong?
i lost a friend somewhere along..
the bitterness..
had i know how to save a life

{ Syafiq and Denise, 2 month and still counting. ! <33 }

8:23 PM

LEE RYAN : WHEN I THINK OF YOU

You're my past, my future

My all, my everything

My six in the morning when the clock rings

And I open up my eyes to a new day

My laughs, my frowns

My ups, my downs

It's the feeling that you get

When you know that something's true

When I think of love, I think of you

Looking at you while you're sleeping here beside me

Oh, neither words can explain the love I have inside

In a moment it's a physical thing

I know something like spiritual connection

The feeling in my soul, heart of mine

The sweetest thing is what you are

From you I'll never be too far,

Please say forever you will stay beside me

You're my past, my future

My all, my everything

My six in the morning when the clock rings

And I open up my eyes to a new day

My laughs, my frowns

My ups, my downs

It's the feeling that you get

When you know that something's true

When I think of love, I think of you

You're beautiful like the colours of the rainbow

Won't part it like the ray of the sun on a summer's day

And all I gotta do is look into your eyes to lose myself

But the substance of my dreams putted me a woman

I only wanted you to call mine

The sweetest thing is what you are
From you I'll never be too far,
Please say forever you will stay beside me

Cause You're my past, my future
My all, my everything
My six in the morning when the clock rings
And I open up my eyes to a new day
My laughs, my frowns
My ups, my downs
It's the feeling that you get
When you know that something's true
When I think of love, I think of you

Yeah, oh yeah

When I think of love I think of you

Baby I love you and I need you, yeah

You're my past, my future
My all, my everything
My six in the morning when the clock rings
And I open up my eyes to a new day
My laughs, my frowns
My ups, my downs
It's the feeling that you get
When you know that something's true
When I think of love, I think of you

sing along :D

love the lyrics;
love the song;
like the meaning;
it reflects much on you, boy :)

{ Syafiq and Denise, 2 month and still counting. ! <33 }

5:55 PM

Saturday, March 31, 2007

my honey and me !

err, she's my fav. twin .!

today change blog link.
okay i dunno why the other blog still have.
created new blog cause i think i shld have a fresh start.
the other link is like bringing back old memories.
so since now i got my dear, so this is where new chap begins.

today went for new haircut.
last night was on the phone with my dear.
sorry dear if i accidentally msg ur hse ard 4am.
i really didnt mean it .

went to orchard to search for daddy stuffs.
and my shoe.
and came back with nothing...
mommy bought me hair dye. .. wtf.
so bo bian go home DIY myself lo.

then jonathan had become offically a gay.
omg. "he's" so lame.. "he's" a biasexual.

oh wadever. gay suits him anyway rite "sister"?

dear i really miss you alot man.
if only everyday can have school..
then i will be by ur side every moment and second...

just give me a second with you.
ill treasure it every single bit.

the way you held my hands;
the way you held me;
the way you kiss me;
seems like we'll never be apart.

{ Syafiq and Denise, 2 month and still counting. ! <33 }

9:43 PM